Left Out

I feel left out and lonely. I'm not suppose to blog about the Army; It's for me to know and for you to find out.

Things have changed. That's all I can say. But I'm glad that they didn't disturb the BMTC guys anymore, even when it's at th expense of them ignoring me altogether. But I feel left out, ever since I downgraded, ever since the incident last week.

That's when i started thinking of my friends, be it in secondary school, tuition, college, BMTC, and many many more. I am always missing them and thinking about them. I wanted to meet them, but most are busy, and I don't mind, because I know that they are doing well, unlike me. I don't even know whether I will be posted out or not. My commanders say they will recommend to OC that I stay to be clerk. But from what OC told me, I don't think so.

During deployment, I didn't even know what my main role is. I am everywhere! I don't know where the hell I belong!

[depressed]