This Week... ...

Wednesday.
Nights off was like kinda weird. First is Matthew didn't join us because he is on guard duty and secondly Jurist came along with us... ... uninvited! Not that I mind, but his decision to join us is kinda of a last minute thing. I forgot what the place is called but it's the india muslim kinda prata house across Beauty World. I am like extra-super hungry with all the 'suffering' back in S1 Branch, and I haven't had my dinner somemore. We ordered one ayam mutabak to share among the four of us. Then Zhi Xiang ordered one Roti John, Ming Dong and Jurist ordered one egg prata and two plain prata each while I ordered two egg prata and two plain onces. Jurist was like busy text-messaging with his girlfriend then in the end quarrel, over a stupid meet up. I hate it when he smokes, especially in front of us non-smokers. I told them about S1 Branch and Zhi Xiang told me about their ICCT training. He make it sounds damn fun that I wanted to join them. Sign. I'm stuck.

Thursday.
Chief Clerk send me off to S2 Branch, which is like so much better than S1. Like hmmm... ... more like friendly environment and the specialists there are like my age and A levels also, so we got along quite well. They even treat me to 香港街, followed by PS3 play time at sergeant leong's house. I feel like... ... like too close for comfort. The specialist are way too nice and like I'm not really comfortbale with it. Need to have some getting use to.

Friday (Today).
I am getting a hang of making camp pass in S2. I made the COS passes today, although some not in very good condition. Today is Battalion Safety Day, so got some games and competition in the hall. Alpha won quite a number of prizes for the games and competiton, and I'm quite happy for them. So they had early book out at 4pm. Sign. I'm still working and today I spoiled one laminator today. Super guilty, even when the sergeants tell me not to worry about it.

Anyway I'm not supposed to blog to much about these stuffs. 5.35pm like that I went off. Alpha people has booked out already. I got changed and went for dinner with Sergeant Chong Yi, Alvin and Kang Wei. We ate Sumo House at Clementi there, because it's the cheapest Japanese food. We talked about stuffs over the bus ride there, over dinner, and of course on the train ride home with Kang Wei. I've got to admit that I learnt a lot of stuffs from Kang Wei, from the things that he told me. He told me today:

Mistakes are not meant to be erased...
It's either you learn from that one mistake and not make another again,
or you make more mistakes to make that mistake less prominent...

But still I guess I'm more or less the loser I am. I still feel lousy and inferior.

I guess that's just me. I know who I am; I'm stupid and I'm trouble and I'm a loser. It's basic genetics. Can't help it.

[simply loser zishen]