I Hope She Remembered...

3 more weeks to my birthday... ...

I was clearing my drawer just now and I chanced upon the card that she wrote to me last year on my 19th birthday. There was a photograph of me and her which we took together some time back and of course, I read what she wrote to me. Over. Over. Over. And over again... ...

I have not contacted her for like 2 months already. It's not that I don't want to contact her; 我怕她觉得我烦. What if she doesn't look at me the way I look at her? What if it was me who was thinking too much all the while?

Anyway, it's 3 more weeks to my birthday. I hope she remembers... ...

I'm booking in already. I still have lots and lots of things on my mind. I missed my being with my family. My family has changed. I don't feel the warmth there used to be. I missed being with my friends. Yesterday was supposed to watch Dieaster Movie with Zhi Xiang, thanks to someone who need to do guard duty 出stun, so he has to go back to stand in for him. I feel... lousy. Why must we land into this kind of shit? Aren't we suppose to be better off?

我感到很自卑。I need an eraser to erase the mistakes that I have made... ...

[simply loser zishen]