Raindrops Keep Fallin' On My Head

Raindrops keep falling on my head... ... and apparently, there's nothing I can do about it... ...

Anyway, here's the song:

Raindrops keep falling on my head... 

And just like the guy whose feet 

are too big for his bed, nothing seems to fit. 

Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling.

So I just did me some talking to the sun.

And I said I didn't like the way, he got things done... 

sleeping on the job... 

those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling.

But there's one thing I know: 

The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me. 

It won't be long till happiness sleps up to greet me.

Raindrops keep falling on my head 

but that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turning red. 

Crying's not for me cause I'm never gonna stop 

the rain by complaining. 

Because I'm free. Nothing's worrying me.

Sitex 2008

By the time I woke up today, I was a little past 10 already in the morning. I have no idea why am I still sleepy, 'cause yesterday I slept at around 1 in the morning after meet up with Aldric they all for supper. 

Am meeting Wei Hao at 1230 at Bugis supposedly to go Singapore Expo for Sitex Show. In the end, we pushed it back one hour 'cause Wei Hao came back from guard duty quite late. We had Long John Silvers at Bugis there for lunch. Wei Hao said need to have something good during the weekends when we book out. Yeah, talked about what happened to us for the last couple of months ever since we parted from Tekong. 

Sitex is hell of a crowded, that's all I can say. The deals there are quite good also. Wei Hao bought one Micro SD Card and a head set. I wanted to buy the Creative Speakers that is one sale; it's selling for $69 instead of the usual $89. My speaker at home also a bit old already. Wei Hao was like telling his are like 5 years old already. I still remember that time during the March's PC Show at Suntec, we each bought one Samsung i8 digital camera. He says he will be back tomorrow when his mother approved his printer. So today is more like his 'recce' session with me. Actually, I am also thinking of going back for the speakers. Furthermore it's the last day, so maybe there's a better deal or something.

Came back home to wash up a bit, then went over to grandma's house. It's has been ages since I've been there to visit granddad and grandma. Chatted with grandma for quite a while. I like listening to grandma's stories and her experiences, 'cause I'll always learn something from it. Since quite a young age, me and my siblings are rather close to grandma, especially since my mum starts working last time. So, yeah, we were talking.

Quite a lot happened this month, which I never blog about. Am actually trying to recollect what happened and blog it out. I didn't blog much for this month of November 'cause I was too engaged in playing Red Alert 3. Not bad a game actually. But because of it, I became no life; everyday I'll be playing it for quite a while, until my mum also nag me not to play. All I can say is this month has not been very good. Sad month, November. 

I'm like living a lie actually I must say. You all can see me, like smiling everyday, like happy-go-lucky. But actually I have troubles also. Got a few nights this week I have been like crying myself to sleep, and will be like 'emo-ing' alone in my bunk. Sigh. Things sometimes just don't go as you wanted it to be... ...

[simply emotional zishen]

F R I E N D S

Today was quiet. I was quiet actually. The whole day in office I never really talk much, just like speak when I'm spoken to. Started talking towards evening. I don't know why; I just don't feel like talking today. Think I am the one that make this so? After all, I am the one that chooses whether I want to be happy or sad. DY was like "Are you okay not? Shouldn't you be happy coming back from Malaysia? Do I need to interview you not?" Apparently, I choose to be quiet. Life isn't the same anymore I guess. I was quite emo yesterday night actually 'cause I think I dropped my Student EZ Link card outside camp after I alighted from the bus. One is I just topped up the card and second is I can't cheat Student fare anymore. Will cost me quite a lot now just for traveling.

Contacted Boon Hui in the morning. Apparently he went to Australia for some exercise and didn't inform us. I have been trying to contact him for the past month. I hoped he is doing well in where he is now.

Gim Hock left for Thailand yesterday for his last exercise before he commission next month. Hope he is doing okay at the moment; i just want him to be safe.

I was thinking of this question this past few days: What if all my friends are gone? Who can I turn to? Someone told me: If they are truly your friends, they will stick around for a while. Is that true? But what if there are no true friends in this world? What if the whole world is nothing but an illusion?

As we go on, we remember all the times we spent together;
And as our lives change come whatever we will still be friends forever.

Familiar eh? It's the chorus of Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C. I was like listening over and over again on the train that day. It brings back lots of memories, especially from secondary school and BMTC, cause this song was playing during my passing out parade. Really really missed those days in Dragon. Although it's tough, it was that that really bonds and brought us together. Me, Gim, Boon, Ah Beng, Zhen Nan, Xiao Gao, Danton, Gary, Matthew, Wei Hao, Ambert, Giant, Marcus, Evan, Sister, Don, Amos, Chew, Tai, and etc. and etc. Although now I only keep in touch with a few of them like Gim Hock and Ah Beng, I still missed the rest of my platoon mates. Platoon Sergeant Wayne was right: BMT is the part of army that you will remember the most.

This sounds gay but I really missed being with my friends, especially those I don't really meet up with. I feel that I am like pestering some to meet up. What if because of this that they think I'm very annoying and thus spoil the impression that they had in me?

So I guess all I need to do now is just shut the f**k up and wait. They will stick around for a long time if they are my friends. Maybe I'm scared that I'll lose my friends again, like how I lose some in the past few years, like Yi Fen. I met her on the bus in July. I still want to talk to her, but from her body language, I know she doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Guess we didn't break well back in secondary four. As in we didn't end the relationship in a good way. Now I missed her as a friend. I still remember how we used to chase each other around when we were in primary school 'cause I will be like teasing her. Guess those good old days were gone. Nothing, but memories now. Janson too. I think we are okay now, but I still feel a bit awkward. Like we have not really talk to each other in months. I feel that even if I talk to him now it won't be the same as before. Worse, we might even end up quarreling again, which I don't want to 'cause our friendship is ruined enough already I guess. Eng Ling too. I didn't talk about him much before. He's my GPMG Gunner. As in when I was still a rifleman. He's a good guy, and I really really appreciate him looking out for me during trainings. During Platoon Defense Field Camp, I was on medication. He did most of the digging for me while I rest. I am touched by this. Although he sometimes like make fun of me, I know he was just playing. He said to me this when I know I'm going to downgrade: You are always my MG assistant. These words touches my heart. I don't know how to put it but I feel happy that he treated me this way. But, after what happened in August, everything changed. He didn't really talk to me for one whole month. Although he's talking to me now, it somehow feels different already. Zhou Hua. This guy I known in primary four. I think during secondary school days I said something to him that makes him quite mad, 'cause he wasn't in the best of moods that time, and we ended up not talking anymore.

I'm afraid to lose my friends again! Think that's the reason why I'll be like very scared when people don't reply to my messages. When I text message people and didn't get a reply, I'll be like worried and wondering: Why he/she didn't reply me? Is it because they are annoyed by me? Is it because I'm a burden to them? Are they okay? Am I an eye sore to them? Millions of like negative questions will like fly through my brain. The other side of me will be saying to me: Maybe they are busy? Maybe they are attending to something else and their phone is not with them? But I simply can't; the negative thoughts are more and much powerful as compared to those positive onces. Guess it's because of me being afraid of losing my friends. I don't have much friends left, so I'm afraid.

What if all my friends are gone one day? I confirm won't be able to take it one. I'm afraid of being lonely! I'm afraid of being all by myself! Sometimes I really wished that I'm stronger. The more I want to be, the weaker I become. I find comfort in contacting Gim Hock and hanging out with him. But now he is in Thailand. So, guess I won't be hearing from him any time soon. Wonder if he got bring his hand phone along. Wished he was beside me now. At least when I feel emo in Tekong he knows how to comfort me. I really missed this guy. My buddy. My friend. My brother. Sounds gay but I still need to say.

原来我也会害怕寂寞.

[simply emotional zishen]

Friends

Friends stick together till the end.

I am missing a lot a lot of my friends. There are things which I want to tell every one of my friends. I sometimes wished that I was stronger. Like, to be more independent and not rely on my friends. But I will often find myself thinking about them, worrying for them. Are they doing good? Are they having troubles? Do they need my help? As at this moment I hoped that most of my friends are doing fine. I know; they need a break too.

Friends stick together till the end. To the very end.

Let's see who did.

[simply zishen]

[sorry for this random entry]

Recollection

I was away from Singapore this few days 'cause I went to Kuala Lumpur and Melaka with Zhi Xiang, Matthew and Ming Dong. We left Singapore on the afternoon of 29th Oct for Kuala Lumpur, which we arrived around 8 pm. After checking into our hotels, we went Chinatown. Lots of stuffs on sale, but most vendors are like selling the same stuffs. The next day we went to places like Batu Cave, Central Market, KLCC, Times Square and etc. I'm quite proud of ourselves 'cause like we travel around on their public buses and monorails. Third day we went to Melaka and visited some of the places ot interest with a tour guide before we brought us to the hotel. At night we went to Jonker Walk, which is like their night market. The place is like damn happening, with a singing competition going on and so on. We left the next day for Singapore, which is like yesterday.

We passed Singapore's Custom around 4.30pm yesterday. We reached Queens Street around 5 plus and took train back home. I met up with Herrick and Jintai at night to have dinner and ice cream.

I was looking through Friendster and Facebook yesterday night, and found out some stuffs. Actually I'm kind of slow to only notice it now.

Gim Hock is leaving for Thailand. All the best to him!

[simply confused zishen]