The Missing Part...

I was text messaging Gim today. I guess I am like growing a bit too close for comfort to him. Apparently he's one of the very few people that I can turn to now. I skipped today's outing with Dennis and Jin Tai, because I don't feel like going Queensway and I feel like watching House Bunny. They called me up around 11am and say that they don't mind watching after they had done their errands. I told them never mind, because like I just met them on Saturday so it's justifiable to meet other of my friends.

Sad to say, I am a loser; I called up and text messaged to a lot of people. No one reply. No one picked up the phone. No one. No one. Elton is the only one who reply my message, and I truly am glad that he did. If not I would be like 'emo-ing' at home again.

So, while waiting for Elton at Yishun GV, I was text messaging Gim Hock, and he was like telling me "Dun be so pessimistic k?". I was telling him about this world being cruel and unfair and apparently there is nothing really forward looking about, except maybe his commission. I guess I am afraid to loss this friendship of mine with Gim, like how I lost mine with Janson. Apparently, I am growing too close for comfort to Gim because of that. When he don't reply to my messages, I would feel sad; When he messaged me about him being stressed, I want to be beside him to comfort him; When he tell me he has do to guard duty and can't attend his granddad's birthday party, I had that urge to replace him for his duty; When he calls me up, I feel over the moon, even more happy than striking lottery; When I see something nice, I want to buy it for him; When he tells me about his training, I wished that I can be with him... I guess that's why I have been emo-ing about, our friendship, our brotherhood... ... Without him, I feel empty...

Anyways Elton was like 20 minutes late. I was like telling him about how I hate late comers. He say "Still early lah! The movie won't start so early one." And yes that was the case; when we entered the cinema, they are still screening the advertisements and after like a few, Elton will turn to me and say "See?! Haven start yet!". I was like smiling to myself. We watched House Bunny, and it's like damn funny. When I hear Elton laughed beside me, I feel happy, like very joyful and suddenly I was like forgot about all my worries and problems. It just makes me want to laugh together with him. I'm contented with just this, with just a friend beside me, as we laugh together.

After movie, we loitered around Popular for a while before he says he had a stomachache and we walked all the way down to the first floor one 'cause the second floor is full and the third floor is closed. After which we went KFC 'cause I want to 'dapao' Zinger home. And then we parted at OCBC.

Goodbyes were never easy for me, especially with friends that I don't usually meet up with. I just need to be with my friends...

[simply loser zishen][depressed][empty]