after block test...

tuesday still got physics mcq to go. but today i'm already like over the moon liao. dun feel like doing work le. so decided to go ikea tampines get some storage box cuz my desk is really like messy.

was waiting at the bus stop opposite khatib mrt for bus 39. then damn pissed off lah. a bunch of attention seekers came along. cuz i was wearing my yjc black polo, they kept on passing remarks like "yj stupid jc lah" and "... all yj dogs" and stuffs along these lines. then they were like supposely saying out all these then veri loud some more then everyone was looking at them and looking at me cuz it's me they are talking abt. wau lau. so angry loh. feel like giving them everyone one slap on the face and tell them go eat shit. really really contain myself. just let them talk all they wan, i tell myself. saw bus 39 coming along. so so unlucky; they board the same bus as me. so i was sitting near the exit then they sit behind me and just kept on talking abt yj being a disgrace to the society, yj bad here, yj not good there. what the hell mann. the longest and damn pissed off bus ride i had ever had.

fortunately they didnt alight where i alighted, if not i will really faint. really veri angry liao loh. so walk my way to ikea. then inside also things happen. one auntie like came over to me and ask me "how much is this chair huh" in hokkien. then i tell her i dun work here, so i dunno. then downstairs near the check out there another auntie came over to ask me abt sofa or smth. wtf. ikea sales ppl wear yellow tee shirt. i'm franking wearing black polo. i think i should wear less of the yj black polo.

then reach home around 2 plus like that. so started packing my room. di di help me; just kept on running in, then i tell him to help me touch away those like papers i dun need le, then he take and run and touch the rubbish in the bin in the kitchen. haha. aiyo so messy i nearly fainted. but in the end still a neat and tidy room. now i move my sheft to the window there cuz in the morning the sun always shine in veri bright then cant do things there so yah use it to block the sun. then the two black box, the top one is econs stuffs then the below is GP things. the green box is the 'box of maths empowerment'. then the big brown bulky one below the green one is computing. physics is in the files on the shelf. haha. forgot to take one photo before i start packing, like what pei shan said she would do. but now looking at her to do list, like still haven start packing. haha.

went over grandma's place later in the evenings, like every other saturday. came home around 9 plus like that. haaaaii. next week tues and wed must stay in college until 5pm. haaaiii. but what to do? need to prepare for A level computing coursework le. wed start coursework session A. haaiiii. jia you to me and to the rest of my computing mates from 211. need loads of helps from u guys!

term 3 starts...

term test. omg. barely studied for it. i think i screwed up ytd's gp paper le, esp for paper 2. haaaiii. then econs essay still cant finish. spent like 1 hour and 10 mins for the first essay on externalities and measures to solve them. haaiiii. then today just had computing paper. morning went early for to college to study cuz college library got better references computing books then my miserable one. and wow, the first time i barely had time to finish lah. in the past it's like one and half hours i finish le, then go sleep and stone there, play pen. but today wow, cant believe myself also, nearly cant finish. quite challenging paper lah. still dunno how to draw system flow diagram.

studied with janson again at khatib mac. die liao loh by 8 pluc like that. only manage to cover waves. janson was doing chem cuz tml got chem paper 2. lucky for me tml got no paper. i damn guilty lah, cuz ytd janson and sharlot 18th month then janson like was studying with me. then nv meet sharlot. that's why sharlot like not veri happy with janson ytd. sori mann! happy 18th month to u two!

talk talk abt stuffs again for the last 20 mins like that, then went home le.

few more papers to go for me. jia you mr G!!!

one word entry

depression.

and still loving her secretly...

daddy birthday

studied with janson at khatib mac this morning. haha. kind it's quite an achievement for me cuz it's has been like quite some time since i sit down and really like study. finished income determination and umemployment for econs today. went thru maths with janson cuz he like quite clueless of what's going on. stayed til like 1 plus then we go off le, cuz i've there since morning then inside veri cold. saw my cousin with her friends also. haha. chatterbox. call her also cannot hear cuz they talkig to loud. haha.

daddy's birthday today also. sista went to da bao taste of thailand cuz my dad has been dying to eat it like dunno how many donkey ages ago. haha. quite nice. esp the fried sotong. then sing birthday song to my dad. then so many planes fly by cuz think national day rehearsal. haha. like add to the atmosphere like that. haha. merrier. my family like since new year haven sit tgt and eat dinner le. so i think that's why my di di also like quite happy today. after daddy cut the cake, we continue lighting the candles and sing happy birthday to di di (apparently he like to sing happy birthday veri veri much). haha. so many times loh. but then he also veri happy. kept on jumping abt when we let him see the playback.

here's di di's last birthday rehearsal. haha.

wanna study

omg! wanna study, but wasnt that fruitful as i expected it to be. was with tai at khatib mac this morning to study. wan study econs, but like outside so easily distracted. end up doing maths, cuz maths is the only thing i can do even with distractions. haha. kinda cocky. but anyway, ya i did maths. finish up most of the stats tys ques by now. correlation coefficient and regression line today. sampling and hypothesis testing to go! haha. 11 plus like that go back le. wan have lunch at first at 848 there, but tai buy one magazine for his brother then no money le. haha. so didnt eat.

went home and grandma and aunt are here to help my mum make dumpling. wanna study but di di keep on coming and disturb me. i dun blame him lah. he's just an infant. so cute also. haha. brought him out for a walk later in the evenings. now he veri 'sticky' to me loh. pampered kid. haha. also try his innocent face on me. dinner was porridge. haha. he just ate the whole bowl of it and still wan some more. so i gave him my share. haha. then keep on pestering me to play with him. he likes it when i throw him in the air and make all the stupid sound effects. now he's bathing. haha. he wouldnt sleep so early i guess. now his hyper active period.

block test coming! pull up your damn socks!!

extra super mini tuition gathering

fathers' day today. but nv give dad anything today. he gave me 10 bucks instead. haha. tot shld be the other way round? brought di di out for a walk on his new bicycle this morning. walk to ntuc there, then walk to grandma there, then home. haha. dunno why i not sian although i always walk to same route. initially wanna play the playgroung one, the one at block 826 there one. but wet lah, so cant play.

meet tai and herrick for lunch in the afternoon. so yah, is this consider a extra super mini tutition gathering. nv call kee wei. opps. sorry kee wei if ya reading this, cuz it's quite like veri last min one also. haha. ate han's at novena square. herrick ate at home le, so he just sit there and tok cock with us. i had smoked salmon and tai ate chicken chop. then walked around novena square. there's a little 3-3 street sorcer competition going on so we stopped and watched. after that go junction 8 play arcade. haha. herrick like damn pro in king of fighters. me and tai wanna vs inital D, but cant read japanese, so in the end anyhow choose the options then become single player. haha.

then went secret receipe sit sit and continue out tok cock session. the marble cheese cake was good. herrick had royal chocolate cake and tai had black forest. tai's black forest cake like shit like tt, as in the shape. haha. maybe the fellow no exp in cutting cake. they ordered drinks also, mikeshade and oreo crush (smth like tt). i just had distilled water. cuz i'm broke soon. sob sob. must control myself le.

block test coming soon. in one week. jia you to me!! and my college mates too.

chalet recollection

sick...

mrG is sick today... ...

so not in the best mood to blog.

let's hope mrG gets well by tml morning.

all-out day

went for self study inthe morning. haha. library was like blank; no one there one. then read thru c++ for the first hour. class, structure and etc. too much theory also bad for the mind. haha. so did maths. binomial and poisson distribution. tys. haha. try to go slow and steady. then orh, my earpiece the left ear spoil le. sob sob. then i not use to using the right ear onli. so like.... uncomfortable loh. not so productive le. guo tai and andrew came along in a while. as usual guo tai asked me question on maths. curve sketching. haha. when was the last time i did those? like most of the stuffs forget le. sori mr tan if ya reading this blog! tried my best. andrew photocopy the questions tested for block test from the tys. helped him copied some of the ans. lunch was fried rice with fried egg and fish from the western food store in college.

two plus like that meet jason and wei han at tpy to shop for some of the things we need for bbq on monday. then we kept saying 'okie! i pay!' when we choose smth like more expensive than the rest of the brands. haha. damn funny. then i veri out-dated; dunno where is the alighting bay at tpy bus interchange. haha. still got some stuffs need to buy one. must meet earlier on monday. then went with wei han to borders there at orchard. at first i tot he buy books. then apparently he buy iPod video. two some more! one for him, one for his sista. cuz the mum sponsor. damn good lah. then browse for books in borders, watch harry potter there also. walked to heeren cuz wei han wan buy cd from HMV. watched 200 pound beauty there. haha. damn sad show. got carried away for a while. so yah, han bought the 200 pound beauty and one final fantasy cd. oh yah! before that eat old chang kee! long time nv eat lah. eat prawn nugget. haha.

still early after all this. meeting jintai later at 6. so went walk some more. went orchard library. haha. wei han dunno there's a library in orchard. so went there in hope to find music scores. but nope; nth there. then saw one attention seeker there, smoke and sit one the railing at the 3rd floor. almost fall lah. everyone was looking. dunno he siao or what.

went off to meet jintai at northpoint for dinner. dinner was BK. haha. tok cock again abt sec sch and tuition. went popular buy things walk a round some more then want home.

damn tried today. need to wake up early to do mr ho's bloody hw tml. sux mann.

quote of the day: i just want to be by your side, and love you sercretly...

anger in rage

suppose to be quite neutral today. last day of holiday lessons le i tell myself when i woke up and dun feel like going college for holiday lessons. last day le, so just get over with it. so push myself to shower then go college. soon yong was waiting for me in canteen. sort of msg me last night during chalet that he need my copy of maths prelim paper 2006 to mark his solutions, cuz out of nowhere mrs kwang wants it handed in.

first lesson is mathe lecture. as usual, mrs kwang will spend abt 10 to 15 mins scolding ppl. haha. can tell that she's always arrowing our class one, esp the gals. went thru prelim paper 2005. had to fight myself to pay attention. one hour break after that, so just eat then tok cock with the classmates. haha. tok abt that time lakshman nearly let us strike 4D, cuz the first time he help us collect our plates and return them to the container. maths tutorial. haha. half an hour mrs kwang was toking abt 95% attendance. then she say the names of ppl below the 95%. haha. then they all kept on 'agruing' that some days are not valid, cuz it's wed, saturday or holiday. haha.

tot it would be mrs liang today for computing. but it's mr ho.... again. sucks mann! okie, just dun bother him, i tell myself since that thingy ytd. went thru part c for mock coursework 1 then need to copy the outline from his slides. bloody hell! cant he just freaking use the printer?! nearing the end of lesson, he say we need to come back next week for lessons. then he purposely pick tuesday somemore!!! f*** loh! he knows i got chalet that day then he purposely wan find fault with me. then he kept looking at me when he said that. his eyes are like saying "my-words-are-final-and-nth-you-say-can-change-it ". bloody hell. he just wants to take me out. bloody f***er! i know i'm not in the best positon to challenge him. neither am i in the position where i can go against him and dun come - if i dun come he sure find fault with me and i'll get into trouble.

i sense a storm coming.

kevin and i went for long john lunch. haaaiii. not really in the best mood to eat also. afterthat he left first and i go walk walk. popular. precious tots. then went back.

now i'm extremely angry le. mr ho is ALWAYS finding fault with me. looks like there's nth i can do abt it. storm's coming. he like to play, then i will game along with him. now i'm angry with rage. he is always ruining me life!!!! always somehow got one computing lesson pop out from nowhere one. last min kind somemore. then he will like say me for being late, when he himself is so last min. coursework also like that. dunno when got one. then out of the blue, suddenly got one. f*** loh.

bouncer G now is angry in rage!!!

bad and good

mr ho really spoil my mood today. haaaaiii. not that i dun wanna do my coursework well; just that.... haaaaiii. well maybe i'm not really a veri good student on my part. and A level computing coursework is like what 2 weeks plus more. well, i didnt really do my mock coursework veri well. then mr ho ask me to complete it by monday.

then i say "errr.... can i hand in to u on thurday instead; cuz monday to wednesday i got chalet with my class." then he was like damn piss off le "you this kind of coursework and u still dare to go for chalet!" after he said that, half of me is like... gone; suddenly i feel veri.... lost. dunno what i shld do le. then during mrs liang's lesson i totally gone le. no mood to listen to her. play hp game. then wei jie was like "wow! u play hp for like a whole hour loh." after the lesson. and yah, that's the fact. soon yong was in the canteen doing work. vincent and roy shld be with him, but apparently they are not.

went home. i told myself: okie, today got family chalet. just stay cool and study hard soon; u will be fine. so reach home le play need for speed carbon while waiting for my cousin mabel to come fetch us. she in the beginning say 2pm. but in the end 3.30pm then come. she say the hair stylist say 1pm can finish her hair le. then 2.30pm then done. then she lost her way in town then takes her a while to find the correct way.

reach there 4 like that le. okie loh the chalet. not really in the best mood (than to mr ho!), but still try to be part of it. just went around taking photos (cuz apparently that's the only thing that can make me happy for a while). other than that it's just eat, gossip, eat gossip....

anyway here are some photos i took today. i didnt put caption so it's just the photo ID. haha.

i got take some video also. but i dun know why the videos will be clear now, then blur for a sec, then clear, then blur, then.... aiya u get the point.

story teller of the day is yun qi; kept on entertaining us with her story from her trip to malaysia on a culture exchange program, and her trip to taiwan. haha. then wei bin kept saying she repeats her story like so many donkey times. haha. but it's good to hear experiences from other ppl. and of course when the story brings out laughters. cousin mabel fetch us back. it's kinda hard for us cousins to gather now cuz everyone is like damn busy le.

i've got to work hard for computing soon!!! and i mean real soon!!! wish me luck!

the love story...

7th grade
i stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called "best friend".
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didnt notice me like that,
I knew it.
After class she walked up to me
and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her.
She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know
that I don`t wanna Be just friends,
I love her but I`m just too shy,
and I dont know why...

11th Grade
The phone rang.
on the other end it was her.
She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine.
after 2 hours, a drew barrymore movie, & 3 bags of chips, she decided to goto sleep.
She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know
that I don`t wanna be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and i dont know why...

Senior Year
The day before prom she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick" she said; he`s not qonna go.
well I didnt have a date
and in 7th qrade we made a promise
that if neither of us had dates we would go together just as "best friends".
So we did.

Prom night
After everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her;
She smiled at me.
I want her to be mine,
but she doesn`t think of me like that
and I know it.
then she said "I had the best time, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her, I
want her to know
that I don`t want to be just friends,
I love her but im just too shy,
and I dont know why...

Graduation Day
a day passed, then a week, then a month.
before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didnt notice me like that,
and I knew it.
Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her.
then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you`re my best friend, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know
that I don`t wanna be just friends,
I love her but I`m just too shy,
and I don`t know why...

A Few Years Later
now I sit in the pews of the church. that girl is getting married now.
I watched her say "i do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn`t see me like that
and I knew it.
But before she drove away, she came to me n said "you came! thanks!"
and kissed me on the cheek.
I wanna tell her,
I want her to know
that I dont wanna be just friends,
I love her but I`m just too shy,
and i don`t know why

Years passed,
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend".
at the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
I stared at him wishing he was mine,
but he doesn`t notice me like that,
and I know it.
i wanna tell him,
i want him to know
that I don`t wanna be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don`t know why.
I wish he could tell me he loved me...
...I wish I did too.

I thought to myself, and I cried

june holiday week 2, day 2

meet roy and wei han for breakfast at northpoint mac this morning. haha. wei han like hasnt change a bit since i last saw him. didnt really tok much, cuz the guy sitting beside us like keep eavesdropping. haha. weird. tell wei han abt OOP, he ask whether we are poly students. like that also can. lose.

reach college around 9.10am like that. study with guo tai and roy in the library. read thru mkt failure cuz got test later. then mr ho make me do make up course work. damn loh. then no break le until 4. by the time finish econs test, damn hungry liao loh. esp for such a big size guy like me. walk home with roy. went to new york pizza, but like dun feel like eating. eat mac filet meal instead.

for a long time since, i actually sit down and studied hard. haha. did mathe tutorial s6. but haven finish summary and complex no. opps. at least tml i dun need to attend mathe tutorial.

and before i sign off, i love her. miss her.

sianzzz

dun feel like doing work today. esp maths. so many things to do; prelim paper, revision exercise for complex number and distribution. then tutorial s6 going to finish discussion soon, so need to hand in also soon. damn sianzzz. then tml still got econs test on micro econs. damn not looking forward to it. and omg loh. today 3 hours of GP do full paper; paper 1 and 2. no break in btw. damn. like do until the summary there i totally turn off le. anyhow do after that. for paper one i did the third question on whether technology has changed the way we do business, then paper 2 is on freedom of thought and expression and speech. since when i like politics? haha.

went mac to study with roy in the evenings. yah ate the new tepanyaki burger and seaweed fries. quite cool. roy always the same - eat mac chicken student meal. haha. then i do a little bit of maths (if not mrs kwnag is so going to screw me upside down tml) then read a bit on econs essay outline. haaaaiiii. everyday study study study. no life mann! went back around 6.40pm. went home wanna study, stone down there instead. read thru lecture notes, but nth seem to stay in the head.

just anticipanting getting screwed tml. well at least i'm having breakfast with wei han and roy tml morning. that's one thing forward looking. at least for now.

today and ytd

Today:

haha. woke up veri late today. then dun feel like hw. very sianzzz. then initially wanna go play badminton with my cousins at khatib there one. jona called, say he wanna go shop shop cuz it's great singapore sale. he need to buy some tee shirts also, cuz he like long time nv buy le. so me him, long and ray went out tgt. haha. then met carol at yishun mrt. then long say she look like auntie (think cuz of her hair).

wow. time flies mann. long this year 21 years old le. seem like ytd then we were tgt in sec 1. haha. long and jona still the same (kept looking at gals, pass comments at each other, then giggle). other than that, play game loh thru out the mrt ride to orchard.

reach le then went walk walk loh. jona and long bought tee shirts. haha. like veri weird loh; me and ray just lag along. then went bugis street there buy slim jeans. long kept saying i look like a bouncer. haha. so yah, become their bouncer for a while, cuz bugis street there the fitting rooms like only got a curtain, so not veri "protective". haha.

dinner was new york pizza. not with them. da bao from khatib, cuz they not eating. haaaiiii. sianzzz.

Ytd:

went for ssp in college. haha. betty say she wanna return me my cd, but she's not even here loh. tok with uncle jackson for a while. then it's alumni carnival. the prices of food and drinks in the canteen went up, cuz it's suppose to be fund raising. damn. a bottled drink is $2 loh, instead of $1. nasi lemak is $5.50!!!! even food court outside dun charge so high a price loh. c'mon! college is getting poorer and poorer loh. they just dun spend their money wisely. they shld buy furnitures for the new office block loh. but they went to build new canteen instead. f*** loh.

anyway, soon yong came along, ask me to go wif him to cuz way point to apply for new broadband plan, cuz got a free notebook. jason came too, but asked us help him sign out later when we go off. then he went off le. we went off around 1 like tt, cuz do work do until veri sian le. went cuz way, eat lunch, then went singtel. suz mann. need to apply online for existing customers. haaaaiii. went home. then visit my auntie at ttsh. blood sugar high and and low white blood cell. but she will be out tml, so fine.

went orchard library study. but cant take it le. 7 plus like that pack up then went off. oh yah. went to paragon pass pei shan the spiderman 2 vcd before going off. went grandma's place for while, then uncle fetch me back home. reach home then sleep le. dun even have energy left to think abt stuffs.

god give me strength and courage!!!

i am bouncer G, signing off.

tuition mini gathering

omg loh! holiday lessons today really sux hardcore. had a timed compre test during GP lecture. omg loh! just started to write the first word for the first question then was told to stop and move on to the next question. somemore the topic was on war, realism and pacifism, which i had no idea. after that went for computing. and omg! 10.30 am to 2.30pm, with only half an hour break in the middle. coursework somemore. cant take it mann. cant do class. linear programming i still can mention. let's pray hard that class wont come out for actual A level coursework.

finally meet up with the 2004 tuition mates. but not all. haha. waye ning, herrick, kee wei and me only. tai at first coming one. but we kept pushing the dates backwards and crash with the dad's birthday. so he ask us to go along without him. was having a hard time deciding on where we shld eat. we went popular first, cuz waye ning need to get some assessment books for the korean kid she's teaching tuition. then herrick kept on asking whether she's taking over mrs lee's place. haha. end up eating pastamania after that. kee wei eat creamy chicken pasta, herrick had tuna and bacon pasta (if i rmb correctly), waye ning had chicken bolognese, cuz under chef's recommendation, and i had beef lasagna instead. crapping thru out dinner. and oh yah! saw sharlot also. she's with a friend. dunno why i had this feeling that i will meet her, and in the end, really met each other. haha.

after that we took some photos. waye ning insist that we take a group photo, but in the end duet. haha.

then went to coffee bean to drink coffee. herrick didnt drink anything. waye ning and kee wei had ice chocolate junior cup and white chocolate junior cup respectively. i just had coffee.

went to visit mes lee after that. waye ning didnt come along, and yah, she dun wan us to tell mrs lee that we were tgt, cuz later her mum will start asking her plenty of questions. chat with mrs lee til like 10.30pm like that. and oh yah, on the way to mrs lee's place i missed a drain and yah, fell inside it of course. damn pai sei. knee was bleeding. i feel it, but dun wan to show it out.

haha. then went mac to tok cock. yah we tok cock abt almost everything. tuition. ns. and so on. apparently kee wei is quite slow and missed a lot of stuffs in tuition last time.

thanx guys; i've enjoyed myself today. big hugs to herrick, kee wei and waye ning! we shld do this real soon again!