june holidays, week 1 day 4

went PC show today at suntec city. haha. meet eng tat when crossing the overhead brigde to suntec city. yah he brought a new canon printer. haha. he ask me why nv ask him. omg loh. i asked around the whole morning then no one wanna go, apparently. and now marilyn just told me she saw eng tat also, then eng tat told her i was in front. this is a joke rite. so many ppl going. haha.

i didnt really enjoyed myself today. the exbitition hall was so bloody crowded lah. no room to walk at all. sometimes the crowd will just stop there, and no one moves. wanna go back the direction i came from also cannot. just practically stuck down there like a fool. ppl are so in-considerate nowadays. they just kept pushing and trying to squeeze thru every space they can possible find. crash into ppl also wont say sorry. haaaaiii. failure of education. nearly fainted cuz haven really recovered from ytd's basketball session; my legs are still not what they are. brought A6 photo paper. $4 only for a stack of 50. then dun feel like staying there for too long also, cuz it's really like so packed.

decided to go paragon to visit pei shan cuz it's like alomst dinner time then i need someone to eat with also. on my way thru city link mall to city hall mrt, went inside hmv to browse for cds. brought 超級紅牌SuperK歌合輯 Volume 2 and spiderman 2 vcd, cuz i wanna watch again, and also pei shan haven watch cuz she missed it on channel 5, cuz got work. so can lend her. wanna buy the orignal soundtrack for spiderman 2 one but dun have the raindrops kept falling on my head song, so nv buy.

reached paragon around 4.15 like that. but pei shan wasnt there. haha. must be her off day or smth. then walk walk around loh since i'm there le. got street sorcer in front of ngee ann city so watched awhile then go back le, cuz channel 5 got shallow hal at 5.15. mrt ride back home was like the longest ride i ever had. lonely me. watched shallow hal. haha. funny show. but some parts quite lame.

dinner was chicken rice from 848 coffee shop and cheese fries from new york pizza. then listen to the new cd i brought. am in love with 等待 by 陳奕, and Love Story by 范逸臣.

emo. sing and sing until i cried. i also dunno why i cried. maybe i missed her. yah. to a veri large extent yes. haven contact her since monday. i wanna sms her, but smth is pulling me back. smth tells me that she will find me annoying.

so let's continue to be emo and wait... for the time to come, just as clar had said.

june holiday, week 1 day 3

cool! was mrs liang's lesson this morning. no coursework! haha. at least escape for a while. for once, i found maths tutorial enjoyable. maths lecture also. haha.

yah just came back from basketball at smb sec sch there, with soon yong, roystonn, vincent and soon yong's friend. opps! i forget soon yong's friend name. haha. haven played for that long in donkey ages. now my right leg veri tight. haha. old injury. went for dinner (or izzit supper?) at around 9.30 like that at bk 313 there. damn sleepy lah. sit down le then lie on the table sleep. haha. ordered the stall closest to our table, coz damn lazy to walk le. was veri quiet thru out dinner when roy yong and vincent were toking abt vincent's lover.

thanx guys i had a wonderful evening! helps me forget abt my love problem for awhile. looking forward to another session!

june holiday lesson, week 1 day 1

sux mann. holiday le still need to go back college for holiday lessons. what to do? after term 3 block test straight away is computing course work A levels le. i'm like so screwed for coursework loh; i dun have a damn cule of what i'm doing. physics lecture was quite slack today. haha. mr tay always veri slack one loh. like more than half of the lecture hall is chit chatting, smsing and even reading magazines.

then after that i got like what 3 hours of break. wanna go library study but in the end cant focus so just slack around. maths tutorial always the same. dunno why now veri sianz of maths tutorial. haha. then ct period went audi for sex education tok. omg. roystonn like freak out lah. damn funny. thru out was just passing remarks to wan sheng and vincent, who apparently dun seem interested in the tok at all. soon yong kept saying he has lots of experience back in china. haha. i really have no clue why they say vincent looks like a farmer from china.

walked home with roystonn, discussed abt pirates 3. quite lengthy movie he says. haaaiii. wanna ask pei shan go watch one, but she says she dun feel like watching this early. think cuz she busy with great singapore sale also, so no time or what. haha.

reach home then wan use com, but omg, the monitor die le. well its abt time. lucky grandma there got one extra samsung one, 17" somemore, so yah went over to get it. so yah, now blogginh using a new monitor. haha. and also listening to the song "raindrops are falling on my head" from spiderman 2. yah, trying to cheer myself up. dun feel like smsing her also. she may find me annoying. well, just i wont know what's on her mind. fixed an appointment this wed with kee wei tai herrick and jun liang, the ex tuition mates, to junction 8 for dinner. looking forward to see u guys soon!

raindrops are falling on my head, and apparently there's nth i can do abt it.

today

wake up 9.30 in the morning. haaaiii. slept quite late ytd night. just couldnt stay

focus coz kept thinking abt her. somtimes i wanna cry. feel so helpless and

useless.

went nee soon cc to study around 11 o'clock. wanna do mathe tutorial s6 but

realise my whole stack of lecture notes was with vincent. forgetful me. so

attempt the prelim paper instead. then tml still need to hand in physics file for

checking. haaaaiii.

大舅母strike lottery that day so she treated us for a feast at grandma's place.

okie loh. quite a lot of fun, especially seeing my cousins. talk abt stuffs; cousin

lynn kept talking abt the western food store uncle trying to cheat her $10 when

she at khatib there going to buy the 童子鸡; cousin mabel and jean was like

totally blur when 大舅母, cousin lynn and me went chong pang to pick them up

coz they tot it's 大舅coming. yah then we just joke joke around. the day's

entertainer is of course 弟弟. pattern king loh. lolx.

zi peng is the one who keeps me positive abt life and makes me happy all this

while when i was down. think i couldnt have make it this far without him and of

course my friends, in sec sch and in college.

四表哥makes an important remark to me; he asked me what does ABCDEFG

stands for. well, it stands for A Boy Can Do Everything For Girl;

meaning if you really like a gal, you must like go all out for her, even if it means

giving up with you have, including your life.

i am willing to do that for her. i can shout it out loud: i love her! veri much!

dennis birthday

after ssp in college, went to plaza sing to meet tai, sze wei, dennis and rx to celebrate dennis birthday. then coz they went movie first, and i cant make it for movie, so tai ask me help buy the cake. i walk the whole mall to find smth else rather than breadtalk. damn lah. apparently breaktalk sells the cheapest cake there. so i went back breadtalk, wanted to buy the small blackforest cake. then one fellow came in front of me and asked for that, which like is the last one there. f***. so brought the one kg one loh. then i was queueing up to pay. then i when my turn i ask whether i can in nets. and yah, cannot. damn pai sei lah. so went down dbs ban k to withdraw cash then wne t back to pay.

that was 3.50pm. then sms tai ask whether the movie finish liao not. then he say going to. from 4 i wait like a fool until 4.30 like that. sms him back say his going to finish liao like haven finish like that. they came out only like 4.45. they say wan go dennis place play majong.


so went back yishun kfc da bao the family feast, before walking to dennis's place.


majong was fun. damn lah. could have gotten the Earth if tai discard 8 Dots. but still after two round robin round the table i self make Plains and have my own Flower tile. 5 folds!!! lolx.

but after that only win some small small onces, but loss big big. lol. so loss in the end.

then we had a mini celebration then dennis keep on saying he damn pai sei lah.

dennis and his blackforest birthday cake. took him a long time not to fidget around.

then he tried 'murdering' his birthday cake

me dennis rx and sze wei

me dennis tai and sze wei

after that we went bk 102 there for supper coz tai keep complaining he hungry (apparently a two piece chicken set from kfc isnt for him). then i like not veri hungry, so went there, the western food store (the GRILL, or smth along that line) and order a fish burger set, coz i tot i will be quite small. but wow in the end, the fish burger set turn out to be more of a fish and chips set, bigger than dennis's chicken chop loh, but cheaper. lolx.

my "fish burger" set and china apple drink

looks more of a fish and chips set to me

yah, enjoyed myself today, esp during the mrt ride back to yishun. thanx for your advices and word of wisdom guys! i'll keep them in mind.

college reopen le means term 3 block test le. i must jia you!

and also to my college mates, jia you!

recollection for 25th May

wake up at 5.30am today, like every other day. went to college (as usual). then realise haven do mathe leture exercise 2. f*** lah. mrs kwang always give so much hw; do this one, forget the other one. lucky the lecture notes behind got answer. then fastly copy.

mr tay gave us our result slip for the term. most of my tutors feedback that i am improving but still i need to work harder. term3 will seem a lot harder than what the time table looks.


then today the last day for the vocal course thingy, so it means it's the final assessment evaluation day. scored 60 out of 80, which i think is quite okie to me le. but my class mates are getting higher than me. what to do? they eat too much potato! and wow; mr ho actually cancelled my computing tutorial for today (when was the last time he cancel lesson? or did he even cancel lesson at all?lolx) ! then econs leture, maths lecture, econs tutorial. haaaiiii. then after that only got half an hour break!

lunch was malay rice with fried egg, chicken in tomato, bean sprouts and seaweed chicken.

and fruit punch!

then after that play basketball with the guys. fun. but half way dunno why wanna faint le. aiyo. must be long time nv play le. lolx. then went back home after that, around 5.30 le. yah walk with roy and soon yong to the mrt. then yah, talk abt cars we see at the carparks we pass by.

now feeling damn emo. i love her but does she love me? i always ask myself that.

will she be my mrs G?

last day of term 2

term 2 is coming to an end. like finally.

but shit lah, still need to go back college for the first two weeks of hoilday.

really NOT looking forward to it. but what to do? we must follow the rules! somemore a few more months only must endure.

college really sux mann. sux hardcore. mrs kwang is gving assignment like crazy lah. then on top of that still need to still got computing course work coming up straight after term 3 block test. stress lah! feel like really giving up sometimes. econs also. cant like really write a proper essay or answer a case study correctly. physics i'm improving. anyway it's H1 level only what.

also, i dunno why i kept thinking abt her. to me she's perfect. she's everything. but i just cant open my mouth and tell her that i love her.

i am a bloody failure!

missing her...

she use to be walking to college. down yishun ring road. right in front of me.

i would purposely 'camp' at naval base sec sch to wait. wait for her to come round. when she does, usually with someone, i will tail them. say me pervent or what, but just looking at her, even her back, warms me.

only when we reach the college's parade square will i go up to her to say hi.

and i'm missing those days. and i'm missing her. everyday. every hour. every now and then.

now i'm still going to college, walking along ring road. but she's not there anymore.

she's not there when i turn back....

...nor is she in front of me anymore.

i'm missing her. so much.


but i dun have the courage to tell her i love her and wanna to be with her.



i'm a bloody failure!

loving someone...

haven blog for quite some time. year 2 just wasnt that fun. stress mann, esp for mathe. mrs kwang just keep on giving assignment like no one's business. then still say what she needs to do this if we want to get our 'A'. and i hate it when she keep saying that she has high hopes for me getting an A instead of my other classmates.

and yah, coming to my love life, i still haven tell her that i love her. it's like she is just too good to be true and i dun wanna loss her. she is so near yet so far. i love her, but does she love me? i dunno. god knows. aiya. who will love a fat guy like me? maybe that's why have dan depressed this few weeks. no mood to do anything. but my mood will brighten when she msg me. and i think i'm extra super sensitive over things she say and do.

i wanna tell her, but if it fail, i may have one friend lesser. what should i do?

i am a bloody failure!